posted 04-20-2008 06:35 PM               

rave: i just watched the movie JUNO. so cute and nice.

rant: although now i feel lonely.
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posted 04-21-2008 10:24 PM               

Rant: Guh! I'm under SO much stress right now.

Rave: I think I might actually have the weekend to myself.

posted 04-22-2008 07:07 AM               

Rave: For once in my life (and I am not exaggerating) I was not the last to finish my test!

posted 04-22-2008 07:33 AM            

Problem is, I haven't done a damn thing to hurt this woman, ever. She initiated the relationship, she ended the relationship, and since then she's treated me like sh*t. All I ever did was love her and do my best to be a good ex and a good friend. I deserve better than this, and I'm through letting it get to me.

I am much-chagrined for having dated a crazy bitch. I always thought of myself as perceptive enough to see that crap coming, but I guess we all get taken by surprise at some time or another.

posted 04-22-2008 12:36 PM               

I don't know how much effect the current state of the economy is having on any of you fellow posters, but I feel like I'm being dragged down further and further.

I work for a land surveying company. We thrive on the assumption that people will be buying and selling property locally, thus requesting our services, and thus getting me a paycheck.

Yesterday I was given the most terrible news. The company I work for is cutting our hours back. From 40 to 36.
It might not sound like much, but it means that each of my paychecks will be $112 less a week.

I'm wigging out.
My credit card balances...
One of them is over $5,000...
The other one is over $1,700...

It just feels like I can't keep my head above water. Just when I think I might be secure - or on my way to a certain level of security - the rug gets pulled out from under my feet.

My question to you is, if you've dealt with debt before, how did YOU overcome it? Or what are you currently doing that is helping?

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posted 04-22-2008 01:25 PM               

One thing that's making it harder and harder to survive is the slow but increase of gas prices in my area. I'm spending on average 100 dollars a week on gas. I spent 200 on gas from last friday to last Sunday. 100 dollars a week is equal to my rent check. I only make so much...

That's >/= $800 a month just in rent and gas. Then groceries, pet expenses, tuition checks, bills (internet, house phone, cell phone, electricity, trash pick-up, cable, misc. others), and other every-day expenses I'm flat broke by the end of each month. I don't know WHAT I'd do if I was still making car payments. Probably just cry...

My way of getting out of debt. I pay off as much as I can as often as I can. I usually force myself to make $1000 plus payments every other month,even if I can't afford them. Then I do without whatever I can cut from my expenses that month to make up for it. (Usually expensive groceries like meat or milk.) I know this isn't the best way to do things but sometimes that's all I can do. It's tough to live in this day and age.

I'm thinking about taking on another roomate. Brittney makes enough money that she helps out a lot but I'm thinking that another roomate will cut the living expenses by about 30%. You might consider something like that..?

posted 04-22-2008 01:58 PM            

For me, I have my car payments taken right out of my check, so I don't even know I'm making them. It's money that I never see so I don't miss it.

In terms of my credit cards, though, that's another story. My regular credit card I owe $5,000 on. I've stopped using it and I just try to pay more than I owe each month, like LLK. That one is the kicker for me though.

I also have a store credit card for my guitar that I bought last year. How I'm paying that off? Selling that same guitar. Sucks, but it's all I can do.

I just learned to cut back on a lot of things I don't need. I haven't been clothing shopping in a lonnnng while. I also stopped going out to dinner and things like that.

Something that might help if you're interested is picking up a second part-time job. Especially for you, I could see you as a Barista at the local Starbucks. But seriously, I'm looking at picking up a part-time job at a yoga store once the Avon walk is over to make some extra cash to pay off bills.

posted 04-22-2008 02:56 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by Elphaba Thropp:
Rant: I am having to do star testing at my school and I hate it!

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I have to take it next week.

posted 04-22-2008 02:57 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by Elphaba Thropp:
Rant: I am having to do star testing at my school and I hate it!

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Ugh! Stupid computer making me double post. Sorry.

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posted 04-22-2008 05:33 PM               

Air-eh-cure-ah?

posted 04-22-2008 08:11 PM               

rant/rave/not sure: so confused in the love department right now. so. effing. confused. right now, this is whats going on in my mind...."Yes. No. Yes. No. Come here, go away, come here, leave me alone. i like you, i hate you, but i like you but leave me alone."
a whole lot of confusion!!

rave: baught some white pants on the weekend.

rant: should stop spending money on white pants.

posted 04-23-2008 02:18 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by wehttaM:
Aerecura... how does one go about pronouncing your username?

Air-eh-cure-ah?

Oh, and in response to your performance story... people suck. Ignore them.

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posted 04-23-2008 03:29 PM               

Katherine Ophelia Divanna.

Today, I stumbled upon something that is just too comforting for words. Out of curiosity, I searched for the meaning behind her name. Turns out the Catherine is the patron saint of miscarriage prevention.

Neither of my baby girls have survived to term. But to know there is an Angel and a Patron Saint there to guide and protect my future children gives me some hope.

Anyways, I just wanted to share her name, because even a child who was never able to take a breath deserves a name to be remembered.

posted 04-23-2008 03:52 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by Twyzzlyr:
Last night, my youngest daughter revealed her name to me.

Katherine Ophelia Divanna.

Today, I stumbled upon something that is just too comforting for words. Out of curiosity, I searched for the meaning behind her name. Turns out the Catherine is the patron saint of miscarriage prevention.

Neither of my baby girls have survived to term. But to know there is an Angel and a Patron Saint there to guide and protect my future children gives me some hope.

Anyways, I just wanted to share her name, because even a child who was never able to take a breath deserves a name to be remembered.

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And it's a beautiful name to boot.

Seriously. It's beautiful Twyz.

posted 04-23-2008 04:29 PM               

It seems strange to want to name her and to know for certain what her sex is, but I trust in it completely. And truthfully, it helps with the closure to be able to say goodbye to a real person.

posted 04-23-2008 08:09 PM               

Katherine means Pure, Ophelia is Helper, and Divanna means Divine.
So she is your Pure Divine Helper.

(awww! I love that!)

posted 04-23-2008 08:32 PM               

on a cornier, less sensitive note....Katherine is my middle name! yay! good name!
...sorry.

rant: so confused and not sure what to do. sounds like high school drama when i think of telling of someone about it.

rave: it all kind of good at the same time.

rant: but all kind of bad.

posted 04-23-2008 10:02 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by helenbooktrip:
RANT RANT RANT. SUCH A RANT THAT I NEED TO USE CAPITAL LETTERS:

WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY LIFE?!?!?!?!

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Because it's spring and everyone is twitterpated and that makes people cray-cray.

Tha'ts why.

posted 04-24-2008 09:52 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by nessaheart:

Rave: found LLK's blog, and commented really randomly. My apologies again. I'm not really that weird, I'm just really tired today...

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Lol. It's fine! I love things like being randomly commented. Comment me any time. It makes me happpy! Making new friends is nifty.

quote:

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Originally posted by nessaheart:

Not sure: had a conversation about the boards today while walking around downtown where I live. It's so weird to use everyone's usernames out loud.
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It used to be weird for me too but not so much anymore. I talk about the boards all the time and my friends have gotten used to me bringing up people's names in conversation.

It does feel a little weird sometimes but not really.

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posted 04-25-2008 01:44 PM            

quote:

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originally posted by lostladyknight:

Comment me any time. It makes me happpy!

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I know, me too. Comments and reviews.

It's strange to be talking to someone who's never even been here and have them recognize names. Conversation-wise, I mean.

posted 04-25-2008 06:11 PM               

quote:

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Originally posted by nessaheart:

Rave: Day of Silence. Did anyone participate?

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Rant: I would've, but my school didn't really let me.

Basically what happened was that a friend and I made an announcement about it. The next day we were summoned to speak with the headmistress of our school, who told us that we would have to take the announcment back and the Day of Silence wouldn't be permitted.
So, my friend showed up wearing gay pride buttons and carrying flyers about the Day of Silence, which we were blatantly forbidden to do. The headmistress flew into a fury at her in front of our entire grade. What makes me feel terrible is that she called me by name, saying to everyone, "Elizabeth has been a good example of how to subtly participate in the Day of Silence-" (I wasn't speaking, but I wasn't being obvious about it) "-and you are not being one."
Well, I don't feel like a role model. I feel like my friend should be the one who's praised for standing up in what she believed in, and I don't want any special attention.

I have had the most emotionally stressful week (for other reasons as well) that I can ever recall, which is pretty stressful.

...I feel dead.

posted 04-25-2008 08:39 PM               

She can not reprimand your friend for supporting gay pride and the day of silence, nor can she single you out the way she did.

I faced a situation very similar to this my sophomore year of highschool. I know it may be hard and you might feel alienated, but I highly recommend fighting over this.

To start with, (assuming they agree with you) your parents should call the school and be ready to show them who is boss. You say "headmistress" so I assume it is private school. In which case this bitchy "headmistress" is being paid big bucks to bend over backwards for every single parental whim. If this does not result in the very minimum of a public apology from the witch, then more should be done. This is not over till you are completely satisfied with the situation.

Your local newspaper would love to get their hands on this kind of story. Students being silenced on the day of silence is bigtime. Seriously. Call them up and give them the facts. Invite them to interview students and faculty. People should know that this kind of injustice occurred in a school.

posted 04-25-2008 09:14 PM            

Yes. I agree. With all of that, with all of what just got said. No offense, Aerecura, but your headmistress is completely *muffled noises* I don't like to say things like that out loud.

Day of Silence at our school is a whole-school affair. People are free to participate or not to participate as they choose, and I've never seen anybody reprimanded for it- most teachers support it. It's more like the students saying, "Are you doing the Day of SIlence? Are you gay?" or people with signs on their shirts that say "My school is taking away my first amendment rights"- but we've had other things...

There was a day a while ago when people at the doors handed out signs, to be taped to our lockers, saying, "I have seen the homophobia in this school and it needs to stop." Unfortunately, there was a huge uproar about the posters not being approved to be posted in public places (they had been, actually) and security guards and students went down the halls ripping them off the lockers. And tearing them up and throwing them around, unless my imagination is exaggerating. That whole thing resulted in numerous announcements by our superintendent over the intercom, and letters, and emails and apologies and a lot of problems. Ugh. People bug me to no end sometimes.

Today in my English class I started answering a question by mistake, because I didn't have a Day of Silence pin and my teacher didn't know I wasn't talking. The guy on my right, who had been making jokes about how he could annoy me as much as he wanted today because I couldn't talk, gasped and went, "Ooh, Nessa, you talked!" And the girl on my other side snapped back at him, "It's an accident, it doesn't matter." I could have hugged her.

posted 04-25-2008 10:07 PM               

I'm also all for education.

While remaining silent still allows education to take place (though even that's pushing it really as you can't really ask questions or anything like that, but it's a day so whatever) - ACTIVELY BEING LOUD AND DISTRACTING WITH IT DISRUPTS THE ENTIRE MEANING OF GOING TO SCHOOL IN THE FIRST PLACE. So however 'mean' she was - as Headmistress it's her job to ensure you have a place in this world after you leave school. And I really hate to be the bearer of the bad news that is this world - most real world jobs would sooner fire you than allow you a day of silence. So don't push your luck while in school.

With all that said - yay for love for a person, and not a sex.

posted 04-25-2008 10:21 PM               

I agree with Aerecura and Matt that it was a terrible thing that the headmistress would not let them participate in a protest; we have the right, as Americans, to do this at any given time or place (well, unless there's an injunction or private property involved, but I digress). But, I also agree with Twyzz in the fact that making a scene degrades the whole point of being in school, which is for education.

But.

Given my understanding of the situation and past experiences in similar conditions, I think we all have great reason to believe that the headmistress was probably not looking after the sanctity of education, but bigoted and antiquated beliefs in homosexuality. I don't believe this headmistress was "ensuring she would have a place in the world after school", she was probably just protecting the name of the school, which arguably has conservative roots, and that's not right at all. Of course, this is branching out into speculation, so correct me if I am off base, Aerecura.

I also do not believe "education" is just a matter of reading a textbook or following a syllabus; real-world experiences and skills are an integral part to a young person's education. Voicing your beliefs allows you to be strong, assertive and confident; if I hadn't gone to a Catholic school where I had to defend my beliefs on a daily basis, I think I would be a lot meeker than I am today. And that's not something you learn from sitting in class.

Aerecura, you did the right thing. Carry on.

posted 04-25-2008 10:24 PM               

rant: i have no wordsto describe how i am feeling right now. WTF is going on?!?!

posted 04-25-2008 10:31 PM               

However! Telling a student they can't celebrate the day of silence is no different than telling a student they cannot celebrate christmas.

posted 04-25-2008 11:51 PM               

It just seems like that was a bad situation alltogether.

It's attitudes like the one that Headmistress had that make the Day of Silence necessary in the first place.

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posted 04-26-2008 12:07 AM               

Rant: only day one of bed rest and I'm already going nuts. It will get better once my mom's bf isn't here.