posted 04-25-2006 05:00 PM            

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Originally posted by Acey:
No... it wasn't me... it must have been St A. *shifty eyes*

Have a great time tonight! Seeing as i won't be able to chat to you after i get back, seeing as it's already ten here.

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Yes, I have learned to accept that you're never around to chat with when it's my bed time. But thanks! Enjoy the rest of your night!

Haha, Awww! Put it back! I liked it! I don't wanna be "barmy"... whatever that may be!

posted 04-25-2006 05:04 PM               

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Originally posted by PlantANote:
I don't wanna be "barmy"... whatever that may be!

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Americans...

posted 04-25-2006 05:09 PM            

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Originally posted by Acey:
Americans...

[This message has been edited by Acey (edited 04-25-2006).]

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Haha, yeah, sorry!

posted 04-25-2006 05:17 PM               

We have all realised that, by now, you have no shame whatsoever.

I just sat on my bowler hat! It's all warped now, you wouldn't notice if you didn't know the hat, but i do know the hat so it seems paranoingly obvious.

posted 04-25-2006 06:02 PM            

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Originally posted by Plant a Note:
Wow, how many meds did you say you were on?! Haha, just kidding. "Tia" means Aunt or Auntie. I will win any spanish quiz, I took it for six years, including AP Spanish.

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posted 04-25-2006 11:40 PM            

First let me say that I adored the show. Didn't like the end too much, not because it was different from the book, but it was so dumbed down! "Oh, so she is yours" "So she is of both worlds..." Plus it also seemed to end so quickly. Having said that!

posted 04-26-2006 12:38 AM               

ARRRRGGHHHHH!!!! ahhhhhhhh!! AHHHHHHHHH!
i hate my computer!! no! i hate the network that my computer is hooked up to!! i share a network with everyone else in this building!! it screws up my system so bad!! i probably have a million viruses and the POP UPS!!!! oh my good lord, the POP UPS!!! i am so tired of seeing the same half naked woman appear on my screen!! it get a pop up about...ahhhh! there it is again!! sometimes they show up 6 at a time and i know that exiting one will lead to another!! it is a very SAD thing when you have memorized the ORDER in which your pop ups will appear!! stupid *^$%#&@ pop ups can go &%#& themselves.

posted 04-26-2006 02:24 AM               

I have to go job-hunting tomorrow! There is nothing worse than searching for a part-time job you know you're going to wind up hating.

posted 04-26-2006 07:17 AM            

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Originally posted by TheUnexaminedLife:
There is nothing worse than searching for a part-time job you know you're going to wind up hating.

Wish me luck everyone

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Ooh Ooh! *raises hand and jumps up and down* I know what's worse! Ooh Ooh!

Finding a full-time job that you wind up hating!

posted 04-26-2006 09:54 AM            

Since this is the place for general rants and raves, I just have to say, I hate my job. I want to cry right now. (I know, strange for me in most of your eyes, as you guys think I'm one of the most spirited people one here.) I feel like a minion. I can never get any of my own work done because I'm so busy doing everyone else's. I have so many friggen things to do each day that I tend to forget one or two and the second it happens everyone's breathing down my neck, "did you do this yet? did you do that yet?" It's making me so upset. I actually had this conversation with someone I work with yesterday,

[colleague] Melissa I need you to do this, bla bla bla.
[me] Sorry, I'm in the middle of something very important, can it wait until tomorrow? (which by the way is something for someone else, of course)
[colleague] You need to manage your time better.
[me, shocked] I know how to manage my time, this is managing my time because I have to have this project done by tomorrow to send out right away.
[colleague] Well fine then. *walks away*

?!?!?! I mean... COME ON! I have work to do too! Whenever I ask someone for something they brush me off and tell me that I have to wait until they're finished what they're doing and I respect that. But as soon as someone else needs something it's "drop what you're doing and do what I need you to do right now."

*(&*(&*@#&*^@& )(@&#*&^@&^)! *(&@*(^@&^!!!!

I've stopped answering my phone if it's someone from our other offices, because I don't have time to do their work on top of my own and everyone in my own office.

posted 04-26-2006 10:06 AM               

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Originally posted by PlantANote:
HEATH! Where are you?! I need a hug.

Since this is the place for general rants and raves, I just have to say, I hate my job. I want to cry right now. (I know, strange for me in most of your eyes, as you guys think I'm one of the most spirited people one here.) I feel like a minion. I can never get any of my own work done because I'm so busy doing everyone else's. I have so many friggen things to do each day that I tend to forget one or two and the second it happens everyone's breathing down my neck, "did you do this yet? did you do that yet?" It's making me so upset. I actually had this conversation with someone I work with yesterday,

[colleague] Melissa I need you to do this, bla bla bla.
[me] Sorry, I'm in the middle of something very important, can it wait until tomorrow? (which by the way is something for someone else, of course)
[colleague] You need to manage your time better.
[me, shocked] I know how to manage my time, this is managing my time because I have to have this project done by tomorrow to send out right away.
[colleague] Well fine then. *walks away*

?!?!?! I mean... COME ON! I have work to do too! Whenever I ask someone for something they brush me off and tell me that I have to wait until they're finished what they're doing and I respect that. But as soon as someone else needs something it's "drop what you're doing and do what I need you to do right now."

*(&*(&*@#&*^@& )(@&#*&^@&^)! *(&@*(^@&^!!!!

I've stopped answering my phone if it's someone from our other offices, because I don't have time to do their work on top of my own and everyone in my own office.

.... I just want to crawl under my desk and stay there the rest of the day ....

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::WARNING:: *Bright red flashing light*

MELODRAMATIC INFORMATION ABOUT MY LIFE AHEAD.
YOU SERIOUSLY DON'T 'HAVE' TO READ IT.
I JUST NEED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST.

*wraps arms around you*

*squeeze*

(I needed that as much as you do)

Remember how I opened up to you? Well, I kind of tried to open up to my mother last night. Needless to say, I was told I was wrong. I apparently have a "heart" problem. I'm not really saved because of how I feel. She will now be screening my cell phone calls, and will be CALLING the numbers she doesn't recognize in order to find out who I'm talking to.

I really am losing it here. She pretty much told me straight out, that if I choose to live like "that" then she prays that God will just go ahead and 'take my life'.

And...and...I'm confused...and lost...and (sorry for all the elipsis)...I've considered running away...or driving off of a bridge...or something maybe a little bloodier to really get my point accross (but I get sick at the sight of a lot of blood, so don't worry).

I was up until 1:30 am. My mind racing. My heart pounding. My future running through my head.

I'm standing in the center of a balance beam right now. If I lean too much either way, I lose everything...

I've cried so much, I do not believe I can cry anymore.

And, I have this "problem"...Whenever I have bad days, or I'm really depressed, I tend to spend money on myself. Yesterday, I went to Starbucks and got a green tea frappacino, then went to best buy and bought a movie, and two CD's...spent over 60 dollars. That's a lot of money for me to blow in one day, whenever I have car payments, insurance, land payments, and food to buy.

I haven't eaten in two days due to all this stress...and depression. Not because I'm trying to starve myself...but I think if I even TRIED to eat something, I'd get sick.

WOW...

Sorry guys for all that.

posted 04-26-2006 10:49 AM            

I'm so sorry for everything you're going through. (Warning, what I say ahead may be harsh... but I think you might need to hear it.)

I can't say that I know what you're going through, or even really try to offer any worthy advice. I'm sick to think that your mother would "pray" for God to take your life. I understand the religious background of your family, but that seems pretty wrong, as far as morality is concerned.

I know it's hard as you said you're kind of stuck there right now. I honestly think you might need to distance yourself from them if you want to be truly happy. I would never want to lose my family, but I would rather be happy and content with myself, than have them tell me they'd rather I not be alive than be who I am.

They don't deserve you.

If they can't accept you for who you are, whether they think it's "wrong" or "right" then they just don't deserve you at all.

I think you should move to Boston and be my roommate. I need to get out of my house as much as you do. (My dad acts like a dictator. )

posted 04-26-2006 10:57 AM               

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Originally posted by PlantANote:
*squeezes hard back* Thank you for the hug.

I'm so sorry for everything you're going through. (Warning, what I say ahead may be harsh... but I think you might need to hear it.)

I can't say that I know what you're going through, or even really try to offer any worthy advice. I'm sick to think that your mother would "pray" for God to take your life. I understand the religious background of your family, but that seems pretty wrong, as far as morality is concerned.

I know it's hard as you said you're kind of stuck there right now. I honestly think you might need to distance yourself from them if you want to be truly happy. I would never want to lose my family, but I would rather be happy and content with myself, than have them tell me they'd rather I not be alive than be who I am.

They don't deserve you.

If they can't accept you for who you are, whether they think it's "wrong" or "right" then they just don't deserve you at all.

I think you should move to Boston and be my roommate. I need to get out of my house as much as you do. (My dad acts like a dictator. )

[This message has been edited by PlantANote (edited 04-26-2006).]

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Thank you so much...and I do not think that was so harsh. I totally agree with you, that I should get out of that house as soon as possible, and distance myself from them.

I'm not too sure I'm convinced about what you said...that they don't deserve me. I've had it shoved down my throat for so long, that I'm kind of worthless...that I don't live up to everything they wanted me to be. And after a while, it's hard not to see things their way. That I'm not "up to par".

Oh my...How I would LOVE to go to Boston!
This is my song ~_^

posted 04-26-2006 11:18 AM            

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Originally posted by ready2flywww:
I'm not too sure I'm convinced about what you said...that they don't deserve me. I've had it shoved down my throat for so long, that I'm kind of worthless...that I don't live up to everything they wanted me to be. And after a while, it's hard not to see things their way. That I'm not "up to par".

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Ah ha. That right there is proof enough. No one should ever make you feel that you're not good enough or worthy. No one. If they do, then they are not worthy of you.

posted 04-26-2006 11:25 AM               

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Originally posted by PlantANote:
Ah ha. That right there is proof enough. No one should ever make you feel that you're not good enough or worthy. No one. If they do, then they are not worthy of you.

So now I just got into a fight with my boyfriend too... this day is just getting worse and worse... *cries*

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Thank you for all the encouragement! You have no idea how much it helps.

I'm sorry you and your boyfriend just fought! =/...

(but just look forward to the "make up"...)

posted 04-26-2006 01:46 PM               

for everyone...
take care of number one. number one is you! do what you need to do for yourself, to make sure that you are happy with your life.

posted 04-26-2006 01:56 PM               

Heath - your parents will hopefully realise that blood is thicker than water eventually - I can only second everything PaN said

And now, for the random:

posted 04-26-2006 04:03 PM               

I wish - and i mean that in it's more urgent sense - i wish! i could be there for you Heath, those thousands of miles away, to do everything i possibly could to help cease or ease this pain you are feeling. And it pains me - and i mean that too, in it's most urgent sense - it pains me to think that there is anyone out there feeling that way, especially someone like you whose personal, inner and deepest beauty is so obviously strong and so radiant... And that is coming from someone who's three and a half thousand miles away, witnessing you only through the words you type and the punctuation you dust those words with, and through them recieving just a glimmer of your true charasmatic brilliance. It is simply that glimmer of you that has spurred me to writing this, and it is the glimmer, that echo of a shadow of your omnipresent goodness that is evoking me to say that if i can't do as much as i possibly can to help you all that way away, then i shall do all i possibly can from here instead.

That is a promise. I am a man of my word. If there is anything you need from me, be it a kind word or a passing whim from some trifle of a London Tourist Souveneir Stand, or something competely different, i shall do everything in my power to do it for you.

posted 04-26-2006 04:12 PM            

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Originally posted by ready2flywww:

(go here) http://www.videocodezone.com/videos/a/augustana/boston.html

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I really like them. Good to know there's a fourth person in the world that's heard of them.

posted 04-26-2006 04:20 PM               

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Originally posted by Acey:
I'm afrain that it has been a long day, and my eloquence has failed me ever so. Thus this sha'n't be as nearly as heartfelt as first intended it to be. [Apologies for the formality, occasionally it will give me a kickstart.]

I wish - and i mean that in it's more urgent sense - i wish! i could be there for you Heath, those thousands of miles away, to do everything i possibly could to help cease or ease this pain you are feeling. And it pains me - and i mean that too, in it's most urgent sense - it pains me to think that there is anyone out there feeling that way, especially someone like you whose personal, inner and deepest beauty is so obviously strong and so radiant... And that is coming from someone who's three and a half thousand miles away, witnessing you only through the words you type and the punctuation you dust those words with, and through them recieving just a glimmer of your true charasmatic brilliance. It is simply that glimmer of you that has spurred me to writing this, and it is the glimmer, that echo of a shadow of your omnipresent goodness that is evoking me to say that if i can't do as much as i possibly can to help you all that way away, then i shall do all i possibly can from here instead.

That is a promise. I am a man of my word. If there is anything you need from me, be it a kind word or a passing whim from some trifle of a London Tourist Souveneir Stand, or something competely different, i shall do everything in my power to do it for you.

And the same goes for absolutely anybody else for absolutely any reason. I want to be able to help.

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Wow, Acey. You have no idea how much all of this means. You have definitely helped lower my stress and anxiety level tremendously today!

None of my friends here understand, really, what I'm going through. So just knowing that you cared enough to take the time and tell me that you're here for me...well...it really, REALLY touches me in a way you couldn't possibly understand.

It's almost as if we have a form of support group here on this board. And just this morning - before talking to you, and PaN, and the others who replied to my confession - I could hardly think without sqeezing back tears. I just want to thank you!

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Dedicated to my group of friends here on this board!

Everyday I Love You: by Boyzone
(cheesy pop song, I know)

posted 04-26-2006 04:28 PM               

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Originally posted by ready2flywww:
Wow, Acey. You have no idea how much all of this means. You have definitely helped lower my stress and anxiety level tremendously today!

None of my friends here understand, really, what I'm going through. So just knowing that you cared enough to take the time and tell me that you're here for me...well...it really, REALLY touches me in a way you couldn't possibly understand.

It's almost as if we have a form of support group here on this board. And just this morning - before talking to you, and PaN, and the others who replied to my confession - I could hardly think without sqeezing back tears. I just want to thank you!

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Dedicated to my group of friends here on this board!

Everyday I Love You: by Boyzone
(cheesy pop song, I know)

"Well I don't know, but I believe
That some things are meant to be,
And that you make a better me.
Everyday I love you."

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I haven't got anything else to say, so i'm going to to *smile* and give you *an absolutely enormous hug*.

And thank you Helen, that is very very kind.

And i do actually feel quite guilty and physically unwell for putting that post on *that* thread now, but we can't go about lieing about our feelings now can we.

Urg, this is not good for my karma.

posted 04-26-2006 05:17 PM               

Acey's day:

posted 04-26-2006 05:24 PM            

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Originally posted by helenbooktrip:
WHOOOOO! the boards are HOT today!!

*shimies shoulders around while walking towards each of you*
....dont ask.

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posted 04-26-2006 05:26 PM               

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Originally posted by helenbooktrip:
WHOOOOO! the boards are HOT today!!

*shimies shoulders around while walking towards each of you*
....dont ask.

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ooOOoo...Shoulder shimmying is fun. I want to do it too!

(but shoulder shimmying always tends to remind me of "Sister Act" for some odd reason. Does anyone else remember that part?)

posted 04-26-2006 05:27 PM               

(Acey, thank you for creating this thread )

posted 04-26-2006 05:29 PM               

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Originally posted by ready2flywww:
(but shoulder shimmying always tends to remind me of "Sister Act" for some odd reason. Does anyone else remember that part?)

(wow...that was random)

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"Give me some of that deep shoulder action!"

I LOVE those films. SO much.

Although, strickly speaking, that isn't shimmiing.

posted 04-26-2006 05:30 PM               

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Originally posted by Acey:
Right, now all the unpleasantness else where is dealt with.

Acey's day:

In short, because i've had my nightly perscription of long posts, i had another audition today, it went very well, i got a recall, and they told me it's at half past nine tomorrow morning... so i need to be in Kent in about eleven hours. Kent is about sixty miles away, leaving at half five in the morning. Hooray.

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That is truly amazing! You're going to do great, I know it! And don't forget the ice cream trick.
*sigh*...It's almost as if you're living out the dreams of so many people on this board! You really are a hero ~_^

(speaking of Ice Cream...I bought Sarah Mclachlan's 'Fumbling Towards Ecstacy' yesterday, just for the song)

"Your love is better than Ice cream
Better than anything else I've that I've tried."

posted 04-26-2006 05:31 PM               

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Originally posted by ready2flywww:
ooOOoo...Shoulder shimmying is fun. I want to do it too!

(but shoulder shimmying always tends to remind me of "Sister Act" for some odd reason. Does anyone else remember that part?)

(wow...that was random)

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I love Sister Act! I totally remember that part and this part "Alma Check your Batteries"